Just thoughts

For the past week or so, I've been hearing struggles and pain shared by different people. I don't know how it feels like to have your spouse leaving after 3 months of marriage. I don't know how it feels like to have to take care of an alzheimer and paralyzed parent. I don't know how it feels like to see your dad passed away and knowing deep in your heart that you won't see him again in heaven. I can only imagine.. the pain, suffering, hurt, brokenness and heartaches. I can only pray.

Everyone goes through life with different struggles. When life seems all good and enjoyable for some of us, it may not be so for others. While we are enjoying, others may be suffering. Many times we forget that pain and suffering exist.. maybe it's because they seem so far away or we are having a good time in life..or probably sometimes we're stuck in the routine or busyness in life? sometimes it is my own struggle that caused me to be inward looking. We have no time to pause, ponder, look around or even to feel their pain..

Then when pain and suffering hit us, we feel surprised. They have always been here..no? Perhaps that's why it is important to constantly remind ourselves that this is not our home. And we look forward to go home - heaven. All tears will be wiped away. No sorrows, no pain. We need to let the others know that there is room for them in our home.

Vent

That feeling..when people around you already found a job but you're still jobless.
That feeling..when people belittle you, "Top student wor, cannot find job?" I'm not top student by the way. Please give me a break.
That feeling of uncertainty, lost and disappointments. Transition?
 

6 Oct, God with us.

So it has been one year already! :) Time flies. There were great times & not-so-good times, ups & downs, lots of laughter & also tears haha Don't be deceived if people were to tell you that relationship is all nice and sweet.. it's a lie! :P Every relationship requires effort, commitment and hard work. For the past one year, we have been through quite a lot of things together and I'm thankful for friends who encouraged and prayed alongside us :) Thank you! You contributed to the growth of this relationship if you didn't know hehe. Most importantly, God made this possible for us. 

Looking back, it's funny how God works in this friendship/relationship. How we friendzoned each other, teased each other and then got together. He who was once my little brother became the Man..chewah haha Sounds so weird but I've seen how God answered my prayers and brought alongside a partner who can journey with me, share my burden and accept my weaknesses. It's a blessing!

Personally, I've learned so much more about God's love and grace.. how He could constantly love and forgive an imperfect sinner just like me and sometimes it's just beyond what my finite mind can comprehend. Indeed,it's unending love, amazing grace. My prayer is that Jesus will continue to be in the center, be my focus, be our focus.

A wise uncle said this, "Always always give in, but never never give up." :) Something that I need to keep reminding myself even though I think Shaun gave in to me most of the time aha Well, it's good that I'm making him more Christ-like! Keep up the good work, bro :P

My best friend :)

My entertainer!

My driver! :(

Thank you for this one year :) the good times and bad times because it tells us how much we are willing to fight for each other. So far so good lah :P :D

To everyone else, I love roses btw! My convo is on 9 Nov btw! hahaha

Love bears all things,
believes all things,
hopes all things,
endures all things.

1 Corinthians 13:7

To infinity and beyond!

Dear Aceplus,

Be anxious about nothing for I am not giving up on you yet. What a good owner you have. I know right. Therefore, be thankful and rejoice always! And live a life worthy of your 'calling'!!

Mum: Girl, your hand phone still can use?
Me: Urm, yeah..still ok. (Though has difficulty typing because keypad cacat and restart button naik gila at times)
Mum: Oh, want to change phone or not? Buy you a new phone *shows me a catalog*
Me: No need la, still ok ba. Why you so nice to me? 
Mum: I'm always nice to you what.
Me: *laughs*
 
So I'm sticking to my Aceplus until the day of its' funeral!
And it has been ringing in my head, "Yet godliness with contentment is great gain". I am challenged and reminded again :) and one thing good about having an old phone is that nobody gonna curi it even if you left it somewhere on the table...which is always the case! :P

Creepy day!

If you know me well, you know I don't normally clean my room haha and to be honest, I don't normally clean my bag too. Actually, I don't normally clean all my stuff la haha, unless when I think it's necessary :P So today, I happen to think that it is time to clean my bag because the little pocket in front of my bag pack couldn't contain anymore rubbish that I've accumulated all these while. And I found this in my bag..

'Pray, Phil 4:6-7'.. It is a bible verse;

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

It is scary.. creepy..I've been reading this verse for the past few days because I've been worrying and anxious about job offers and the transition into the working world. Creepy because it is too timely liao..and I don't know when and who left this in my bag (btw, if it belongs to you, do claim from me!)...I've not seen this before haha but I know it is God. I don't believe in coincidences. I know my God speaks..and He works in wondrous ways. Just when I've forgotten that He is a living God, I'm assured and reminded again. That He hears. That I am not forgotten. That I am loved. :')

The feelings within

I can almost see it,
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying,
"You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shaking
But I, I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high.