Jokes that tear down people..are not merely jokes.

Blessed be Your name!

Every blessing Your pour out, I'll turn back to praise

When the darkness closes in Lord, 

still I will say, "Blessed be the name of the Lord!"

Greatly Blessed.

So cantiks kan the pemandangan from my hostel room NYEK NYEK NYEK  :) love it!! 

 Can you spot 'Faith'? :) Maybe not, hahaa because so messy lah my room! My room mate has been very kind to me though :) Helps me to clean the room and tahan my messy-ness, cuz not everyone can! HAHA

These are the little things that I want to thank God for :) His love for me that is shown through many many ways and little little things which I tend to overlook.

I remember the other day my friend asked me "What would you consider a blessing?" He made me think a bit more haha because i've never really thought about that.. Blessing..is a blessing la?

"So.. Is trial a blessing?"

I was reading my journal (for the past 2 months) last Thursday. As I read back what happened and how I wrestled with God, I see His faithfulness in my life. I think I've come to a point where I no longer ask 'Why me?' that often..haha I think I've accepted it in a way. I only left like one year plus in USM... I don't want to waste anymore time asking 'Why me?' because to be honest, I know He has a reason for it lah..and a reason for good. Maybe I will get my answer when I get to heaven. For now, I better use the leftover time I have in USM for good purposes. (Yes Carmen, pls remember this!) 

There are not-so-good times where I feel angry, discouraged, disappointed, burdened, lost..there are also good times where I feel encouraged by some people..when I see people grow in their walk with God :) (very satisfying one!) and when God uses me despite my weaknesses to touch lives. God has really been good to me :) 

Sometimes I'm tired but I'm happy when people come back to me with a word 'Thank you!'..not because I'm good or what lo, really.. but it shows me that God can use me despite the many weaknesses that I have. It shows me how amazing my God is!! :)

Whatsapped Tien, "Guess where am I? I'm in a bus!!! Fresh Out!!" hahaha I'm now in a position where I'm constantly being pushed out from my comfort zone, doing things that my right mind won't do :p if you get what I mean. Coming out from our comfort zone may sound very scary sometimes..because we are not familiar with it..but It's not necessarily a bad place to be at.. because that's when we know our strength can only come from God Himself.. that's when we have no one but God to look to.. that's when we no longer put faith in human confidence but God and His promises.

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise


Is trial a blessing?
Yes, if it draws us closer to God.. trials can be blessings too.

ps: Dear Tien, we will do the victory dance because.. Yesus yang memberi kemenangan!!

Hands Up for Children!

Hands Up for Children Campaign! 

Went for 'Hands Up for Children' Walk-a-thon with Fong Wan at Gurney Drive this morning! :) (Thank you Ah Wan!) Also went for the exhibition in the mall after the walk. In the midst of busyness (assignments, CF, etc), I'm glad that I took time to come out and see what's really happening in this world..apart from 'my own world'.

So true..it's a good reminder.

The stage.

This campaign is organized by World Vision.. and I'm pretty impressed at the amount of effort that they invested to make impact in these children's lives :) 

Healthcare 

Simple mosquito nets put smiles on their faces :)

Happy faces when they get access to clean water :)

Clean water is something that we normally take for granted because we can access to them so easily. But other children walk the extra miles just to get clean water.

I remember asking myself,"Why do I need to study?" until I went for SWEEP and realized that education can help to break the chains of poverty in poor families. There are millions of children who walk for hours just to get to school..poorly equipped schools.. because education is the way for them to get out of poverty.

Sometimes this kind of campaign/walk seems so small and insignificant.. and it's not like I'm so rich that I can sponsor a child since I haven't even started working..but maybe by being aware of it and giving it the attention it deserves is the first step to everything. Perhaps one thing that I've pick up from this campaign is: No action is too small.

The question that keep coming to me after this campaign is:

What am I going to do with my life?

From the Inside Out

What we need to realize is that people are not transformed by threats or intimidation. Neither are they transformed by nagging or wheedling. Only God can truly transform a person. And when Jesus transforms a person, it’s the real thing. It’s not behavior modification, but heart transformation—from inside out!
 -Joseph Prince-

God is able

God is able
He will never fail
He is almighty God
Greater than all we seek
Greater than all we ask
He has done great things

Lifted up
He defeated the grave
Raised to life
Our God is able
In His name
We overcome
For the Lord
Our God is able

God is with us
God is on our side
He will make a way
Far above all we know
Far above all we hope
He has done great things

God is with us
He will go before
He will never leave us
He will never leave us
God is for us
He has open arms
He will never fail us
He will never fail us

Aku sehelai getah

Some quick updates! :)

It's almost one month now ever since sem started! Wahh time flies. It was not a 'light and easy' month..hah! I felt like a rubber band.. I was being stretched most of the time..still is..I think? It's funny kan, how we always make prayers like "God, I pray that I will grow more in you..." but when trials and problems come, we blame God.. we asked questions like 'Why You allow this to happen?'..we grumble..complain, complain and complain. Well that's me =X Tien once asked this question, "Is refining fire really our heart's one desire?"

Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. James 1:2

Dear trials and problems, for the past weeks, you have caused me to grow closer to God..to constantly depend on God. You somehow showed me how weak I am, and how amazing and how great my God is. In a way, I thank you.. not that I hope you will stay in my life forever, but I know my God is able to bring me through all of you.

I may not understand why things happen.. but I'm believing that God allows it because He loves me. It can be very very hard and tough at times, but that's when my faith is tested..that's when refining fire is taking place. Do I really believe in His love? 

He who did not spare even His own Son, won't He also give us everything else? 

Throughout all these, I struggle..which is true.haha but I also learn.. I'm thankful for people whom He has brought into my life along the way. People who encourage,  support, motivate, pray and stand alongside me :) 

Especially Wai Quan..who is very patient with me hahaha :p who supported me all the way.. Who has worked hard behind the scenes. Without you, I won't be able to make it this far :) Thank you!

We also went down for FES Jubilee Celebration in PJ. It's awesome to see so many generations coming together! :) Young and old, muda dan tua! Also met Thomas Heng who started the CF in USM 40 years ago..waaahh :)

God who started this great work in USM will bring it to completion. :)

We were asked to bring a symbol that represents our experiences in campus..and all these symbols were then placed in this treasure chest as legacies of what God has done for us. As I look at all these symbols, I see God's faithfulness and goodness that overflow in our lives.. even the treasure chest couldn't contain it!

They also performed a mime on 'Find us Faithful.' :) 

This mime always serve as a reminder to me. 

I'm still keeping my plant, Faith.  Faith speaks to me a lot. heehee. There was once when some PKA leaders started posting the pictures of their plants on FB and theirs were like growing..tall and healthy. Mine was just small and..small, so I asked 'How come mine not growing?' Then I realized that I was actually comparing my Faith with others. In the same way, God never asked us to compare our faith with someone else.. it's not a comparison game that we are playing :) but we should rejoice with them when they are growing!

My faith is now a big big boy :)

and I'm proud of you!

To sum up, for the past month, I realized that there's 

nothing I can boast about myself.

If I want to boast, I can only boast in the Lord.

"For the Lord, my God is able."

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases

His mercies never come to an end,

They are new every morning

New every morning

Great is Your faithfulness, o Lord

Great is Your faithfulness