One thing remains

And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39         


                      Constant through the trial and the change - God's love.

 

I meant what I said when I hugged you :')

God still cares. He has not forgotten..

It has been about 3 weeks now that Ah Ma is staying in the nursing home at Tanjung Medical Centre. Actually each time when I go to visit her, I feel helpless.. and I know if I'm feeling this, papa feels it all the more..and it makes me sad when papa is sad :( Today, I went there to visit her again. I listened to her and I prayed silently in my heart..because who else to go to except God? 

There was also this old aunty who was bedridden and she couldn't walk.. I talked to her before and each time when I talk to her, she said she can't wait to die, she is praying to her God to let her die. It bothers me because I wonder if she knows where she will end up after she died? There was once I wanted to tell her a good news about going to a better place after death, to heaven..but fear held me back :(

What put a smile on my face when I was there is this aunty who called out to me once she saw me, "Lu lai liao ah?!" (You're here?!), she came to me and held my hand like I'm her long lost friend haha so cute :) Then when I was sitting next to Ah Ma's bed, she came to me and sayang my face and Ah Ma stared at her! hahaha! When I was about to leave, she waved so hard! :) She is so lovable la but I feel that she is lacking of love from her loved ones.. she can walk, she can run and she can even take care of herself.. why is she there in the nursing home? 

To be honest, I can be very impatient when it comes to old people..and it has always been the most challenging area because I'm a choleric..I'm productive.. I'm fast and efficient haha which is total opposite when you have to face with old people..but I guess this is a season where God is teaching me to do little things with great love. 
And I pray that in my weakness, God's strength and power will be even more evident, working in me and through me.

Di saatku tak berdaya, 

KuasaMu yang sempurna.

Seeing all these old folks, reminded me of the old folks that I met when I was attached to St.Mark's during SWEEP (Social Work Exposure and Embracement Program)..and I wonder if they are still there?

Alison from St.Mark :)

Uncle Chew with his multipurpose wheelchair! :)

Dear God, help them..find the way back to You. In Jesus' name, I pray, Amen.

This is my third time posting this song on my blog I think hahaha because it always remind me to look to Jesus..I can forget so easily when i feel overwhelmed and burdened.. but the lyrics of this song always remind me that He is good even when circumstances are bad.. to remember that He is in control even when things seem to be out of control.





"Because You're on my side
I won't believe the lie
That I'm all alone
I'm not all alone here"

"I know that You are for me
I know that that you will never forsake me in my weakness
I know that You have come down even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who You are"

I really thought of leaving for a short period of time.. but then again, I've decided to stay back. Because the burden to stay is heavier than the desire to leave. I guess sometimes it's not about what you want but what is more important to you. Three years ago, I made the same decision and sometimes when I look back, I wonder if I made the wrong choice? Maybe I should have gone further? But at the same time I know I cannot afford to leave everything behind.

Not an easy path but it's all good :)