goodbye 2011!

what a great and surprising way to end my 2011! :)

guess what I received today?? LIKE..TODAY! :)
I received a letter from God! hahahaa
not exactly but I just feel that it is REALLY FROM God :)



Remember the National Conference 2010? This afternoon, my mum passed a letter to me and I was surprised to receive this 'covenant' that I wrote to God last year in National Conference. I've almost forgotten about it. And when I read back what I've written, I was like "I wrote this?" Haha it is kinda long punya covenant :p

My very own words have encouraged me, so funny..
"It's hard to love others with a sincere heart, so Father, I ask for your heart."
"I want to transform lives and touch lives, not to convert."

I cannot believe that I wrote this too. Great reminder! Thank you, FES!


Many things that I've been through this year..ups and downs..there were times when I really really struggled..(only some of my close friends knew) but without all these, I won't grow.. "still living and learning"- quoting Jin.

Three words to sum up this year: God is Faithful.

:)
hello 2012.
I'm ready!

minggu membaca

Spent most of my time in the room, studying. HEE--EEE---LP. I'm bored.

HAHAHAHAH
I need to LOL in order for me to..





CHILL!

This will be my song, this will be my plea
that as I rend my heart and bow my knees
You'd restore intimacy

There will be a day

There will be a day
When You will wipe away
Every tear from our eyes
And there will be no night
For You will be the light
That we see with unveiled eyes

And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” Rev 21:3-4

happy belated christmas!

Went for christmas+new year shopping with my parents last week. It was a good time because I get to buy a few things nyek nyek nyek :D


YAY! I like this one! I saw it at Parkson and was deciding whether to get it or not because it's a bit expensive. But I REALLY WANT THIS to start my 2012 :) :) so yeahh, I bought this!! Actually I saw another one which is Mr.Bean's Teddy as front cover.. wanted to get that too but I've learnt about opportunity cost in Economics - which simply means I need to let go of something if I purchase another thing! :p

This will be Phang Carmen's 2012 journal :)
Tidak sesuai untuk tontonan semua lapisan masyarakat..because it's private! :)

One thing I really really like about this book is that I can 'tick' my mood :D :D :D then it makes my reflection so much easier, don't you think so? :p

Study week starts now! Time to chase after time and study like a mad cow :/

moo mooooooo!
moooo-i-need-moooo-good-mooooo-food!

surface

Sejak kebelakangan ini, saya tengah belajar perkara yang baru. Saya mendapati bahawa bukan segala hal dapat difahami dengan melihat pada permukaan sahaja. Budak-budak pun tahu pengajaran ini I rasa "Jangan menghakimi buku dengan melihat kulitnya". Tetapi pernahkah saya mempraktikkan pengajaran ini?

If she doesn't do this this this means she is that that that.. If she is doing that that that means she is this this this..
but sometimes it's not just what you think it is lah.

You may think that it is the person's responsibility to explain himself or herself.
But not everything can be explained.
You won't know how heavy, how tiring, how painful that person is feeling.
What if it is not that person's position to explain things?

I'm learning to see things not just with my eyes
but to see them with my heart too.

And one thing I know, no matter how we're feeling or what we're going through,
God is someone who can do exceedingly, abundantly above all that we can ever imagine
that's why He is called God.

God, I believe.

brother bear

I smsed my brother who is in KL, telling him that my house modem is spoilt and asking him what I should do..after a while, he called and told me to search for the old modem in my room. Of course, it was not helpful :/ but it was nice of him to give me a call.. and remind me that I have another brother in KL who will entertain me when I call for HELP! (my eldest brother helps me when I get lost in Penang, he serves as my GPS). I sent my bro MMS sometimes - when I think my face is cute, when I took his car for car wash, when I play with Reon, when I eat good food, etc.. but sometimes I just can't wait for him to come back..and irritate me as usual.. Dia macam perempuan because he always spend so much time in the toilet combing his hair! and he is SLOW macam perempuan. He always nag me for not tidying my room and his car.. and shakes his head whenever I start dancing at home.

I don't like separation. at all.

miss my niece too

Nevertheless, I'm thankful. I'm grateful. because my family is the best-est gift from God.

Is christmas really christmas?

But after he had considered this, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream and said, “Joseph son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary home as your wife, because what is conceived in her is from the Holy Spirit. She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins.” Matthew 1:20-21

With You.

I was just reflecting

What would it be like

If my life is without You, without You

I would be speaking vulgar and behave rudely

I would be finding security

In things that are temporary

I would struggle through circumstances

Pretending to be strong n’ courageous

I would be chasing after my selfish dreams

But I’m glad, so so glad

That my life was never the same

The moment I met my Saviour

He calls me by name

And He said, “I love you my daughter. I love you my Bride.”

How could I not change, with You by my side

How could I not be transformed

To be more like You, to be more like You Jesus

I learn to speak life now

I learn to be better every day

I find myself in You and not my another crush

I still struggle when problems hit me

But I remain strong n’ courageous

because my God, He is with me.

M e r r y C h r i s t m a s!

happy birthday fong wan!!

To the cutest person ever born,

THAM FONG WAN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! :) :)
*belated one day* I'm sosososo sorry that I cannot make it for your celebration yesterday because I had to dance for church ladies' event. was there since 5pm yesterday. Walau bagaimanapun, this post is dedicated just for you!! :)

I just want to say a big THANK YOU to you for being who you are -Ms. Tham :) I don't understand why you always say I'm such an encouragement to you.. Personally I feel you're a greater encourager and you never fail to teach me how to love others. You will always take the extra miles for your friends. This friend of mine has a very big heart for people :) and she never fails to see things positively and always learn to see things through God's eyes. Indeed, she is awesome because God created her to be who she is, AWESOME! :)





Fong wan, let me tell you something.. You're beautiful just the way you are! :)
Thanks for being such a great friend. I pray that you will continue to grow grow grow grow in your walk with God :D I believe God will use you to touch many more lives as you learn to trust Him more :) In our weaknesses, His strength is even more evident! blessed birthday!!

plastik berharga 20 sen

I went to Tesco just now to buy some stuff for PKA christmas celebration in USM tomorrow. I held 8 medium packets of fruit cakes with my two strong hands *yalah tu, strong tau..i didn't take basket*, ran to the cashier to make payment.

Cashier: Tesco card?
Me : Tak de. Saya nak plastic.
Cashier: Plastic kena tambah 20 sen.
Me: Ya ok.
Cashier: *pass me the plastic* teet teet teeet
Me: *pay money and walk off*

While I was walking, I looked at the receipt. RM 44. "Eh, how come he didn't charge me 20 cents for plastic?" Then I said to myself, "It's ok lah, Carmen. 20 cents only lah. I lazy want to walk back already.. 20 cents only, please lah you."

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I walked towards the cashier..

Me : *waves* Hi, tadi saya tak bayar lagi untuk plastik.
Cashier: Ohh

Actually, it's not about how much the plastic costs... but because deep inside I was convicted to give back something that I shouldn't take.. whether it's 20 cents or RM200, if it doesn't belong to me, it should be given back. I know the cashier doesn't know (maybe he also doesn't care lah) but my God sees. It's really not about me and the cashier, but me and my God.

I just want to learn to honor my God in things that I do.. I don't want to compromise, at least I shall try.

Jin!! *screams*

Congrats to Jin who won 'TVB's Most Improved Actor 2011' award yesterday!! (this line is for you, joanne!) *cheers*
I'm so happy for Jin! :)


'When the lights come on' music video :)
I think it talks about how a young boy indulge himself in clubbing, drinking, etc.. then towards the end, he begins to realize that life has a greater meaning than all that..
may it speaks to you too :)




And also, Jin will be acting in one of my fav tvb series!!!! yayyyy, i can't wait!!! :D

updates after busy weeks

They took hours to wrap my 'present' but it took me only 15 minutes to take them out..with the help of 3 cleaners who have sympathy on me.hahahaa anyway, appreciate your 'hard' work! :D

Seriously, hard work. haha

I'm now a registered voter! :) Proud to be a malaysian, tanah tumpahnya darahku! :)

My cheeky niece is getting fatter! I can't afford to carry her more than 10 minutes.. D:

Reon : I enjoy playing with my ku che! *laughs*