I'm not running alone

Carmen is thankful because she is not running this race alone. I have people watching my back.. and they do not just talk. Their actions really speak louder than their words.






Thankful Carmen :)

lebih indah dari pelangi!

Rainbow makes me very happy most of the time :) :) :)

God sent rainbow during our last CC Camp Special :) after we finished ALL our sessions! 
It was more than just a rainbow. For me, it symbolizes joy and hope. 
It was a beautiful sight :) Gazing at the work of His hands.. wow, God.




Lebih indah dari pelangi
Lebih indah dari bintang di langit
Lebih indah dari bunga di taman
oh Yesusku :) :) :)

Camp Cam 2012: Give me life in Thy Ways

Yes! Carmen is back from Cameron and she survived the 3 weeks away from home! :) YAY! :D a round of applause please, thank you!

The campsite is so beautiful!! everything is so new!!

We are so blessed! yayyy :D

Sejuk teramat sekali!!

A lot of things happened for the past 3 weeks, I don't know where and how to start! :) maybe I'll just summarize lar :) still digesting actually. So yes, right after Campus Camp, I went for Camp Cameron :) crazy but I never regret it! My heart was longing for Camp Cam ever since...I signed up for it. Needed a break from everything and hoping that Camp Cam would be some sort like a retreat for me.. Carried some burdens there too, knowingly and unknowingly.. But it was more than just a retreat, God deal with things that are in my heart. Things that I was trying to avoid. It was really a good God-and-me time :) almost everyday He speaks and He reassures.. just that sometimes Carmen is so stubborn! 

Every morning, there would be a wake up call at 6.45am by Bus Konduktor Bulat (Grandpa Ray) or Konduktor Bus Kurus (Grandpa David) except during Sabbath :) Thank you for the songs that you guys sang every morning just to entertain us! Would like to really thank all the FES staffs, including those who were working behind the scenes :) Thank you dengan banyak sekali!


It's amazing to see students from all other campuses coming together :) to hear stories from people who come from different background, families, etc. The name of my family is Asher which simply means Happy and Blessed. On the first day, it was kinda hard to adapt la.. but then second day nee sudah menjelma all the true colours :) I'm glad to know each and everyone of them.. God has taught me something even through their lives. Amazing how God speaks and moulds even when I don't feel like listening or kena mould :p 

Camp Cam also opened my eyes to see things and understand why some people behave the way they behave? Carmen is blessed. She needs to learn how to be more sensitive and to be a blessing to the people around her. Meeting some people there also caused me to feel like I'm so immature. Why so? Because I feel some people are more mature than me, in their thoughts, conducts and words even though we are of the same age. I feel small. I feel....like "Carmen can you please grow up? Use your brain to think more!" but in a good way.. indirectly they challenged me to WANT to be more mature, really!.. hopefully I will change because I really want to! :)


Word Investigator (WI) has challenged me to dig deep into the Word. I realised that I don't really know the truth for myself. Many times I never really bother to find out the truth but just feed myself on people's findings about the truth and accept it just like that. 
Respond: I want to know the truth for myself before I can actually live up the truth. 


Among all the sessions (Redeeming Relationships, Chronicles of God and His Kingdom, Lectio Divina, Chapel), Chapel stayed with me the most. Chapel was something like a service, i think :) I learnt a lot in other sessions too but it seems quite impossible for me to share everything that i've learnt/experienced in these 3 weeks! :p kannnn? malas juga nak post everything hahaha

During one of the Sabbaths, I actually sat next to this thing. The above are all our responses towards God's calling - Chapel (Week 1). I read almost all of them.. Then I realised something. Some of us are sure about what God wants us to do..some not so sure. But there's one thing in common - despite our fears, insecurities, uncertainties and doubts, we still choose to put our trust in God, knowing that He will see us through :') I pray that I will not forget what God has put in my heart.
Chapel Week 2, we were asked to write down our chains/sins and crushed them because of what Christ has done for us on the cross. Then we were asked to take Holy Communion. For the first time, my heart beats so rapidly when I was about to take the Holy Communion. I was.. afraid to take it in an unworthy manner. I never felt this way before. When Grandpa Ray said to me "Carmen, this is the body of Christ that was broken for you...", I cannot tahan.. I cried :'( because His body was broken for me.. His precious blood was poured out for me. Jesus said, "It is finished." :') Carmen is very grateful and thankful!


Chapel Week 3, God spoke through Grandpa David. He shared on 'Running the race' and what kind of runner we want to be.. which reminded me on this blog that I have which also entitled 'Running the race by Grace' :) Hebrews 12. Why am I running this race? only by God's grace.. without Him working in me and through me, I won't be where I am today.. I won't be found running at all.
He also shared our PKA song 'Find us faithful'.. chehwah perasannya, PKA song haha! Well, to me, it was not just a farewell-night-mime-thingy that PKA-ians perform every year. It was more than just that. It's something that I want to live up to - the lyrics of the song - "May all who come behind me..find me faithful." Chapel Week 3 was a reminder to me.

Asher Family's banner!

Ashrites in the conference hall! :)

Outing 1- Tea plantation! yeah!

Outing 2- Steamboat in Cameron is AWESOME! yum yum! :)

Btw, miss penang food like crazzzzyyyyy! :p 

i've been eating A LOT since the day I landed on the Pearl of the Orient!

Outing 2- Group pic!

 Outing 2 - Strawberry Farm :) Ben with his 'WHUTT?' expression! LOL

Outing 2- Makan Strawberi :)

Outing 3- A random park somewhere at Tanah Rata? :)

 Outing 3 - Famous Pancake punya tempat at Tanah Rata!

Wire sculpture during one of the leisures. The ugly ones are mine hahaha

Redeeming Relationship with the World Session.
What is it that my generation need in order to be a witness?

 USM campuses during Camp closing :)

Games! *Like*
"A for WHAT??
A for WHAT??
Aaaaaa..Asher! :D"

:)

Camp Cameron was a Bus Stop. An invitation to Stop, Have Life and Renew Strength. I miss Camp Cam very much.. but I also know that it was a Bus Stop. and Nobody stays at a Bus Stop forever. Some people in my family said "It was like just a dream..and now say Hi to reality." I agree :) Waking up this morning, there was no more morning wake-up call.. no more Grandma Lian Chui or Uncle Gabriel leading us during Lectio Divina, no more bread and kaya/jam for breakfast haha.. no more washing plates together and dipping our hands into a bucket of freezing water.. no more familiar faces that I used to see or talk to for the past 3 weeks.. hmm If it's really a dream, may it be a life-changing one.. may we wake up feeling edified, encouraged and stronger than before :)

"Give me life in Thy ways..." 

I pray that we will run well and finish well.

See you guys at the finishing line! :)

God who met me during Camp Cam 2012..
is a Faithful God!

Big E: Did you know? - Campus Camp

Attended 3 days 2 nights Frontliners Campus Camp at Stella Marris. It was a great time. Enjoyed the fellowship :) I didn't really went expecting anything actually..but God spoke! I'm like W-O-W.


I just came back from camp hehe. Had our sunday service at Camp :) As we raised our hands as act of surrender to God, I felt God's presence upon us. There was like fire burning on my neck and ear on my right hand side, so hot so hot even though the hall is air-conditioned. Pr Sandra then released a word to me "Carmen... For God has not given you a spirit of fear but of power, of love and of a sound mind...." I didn't really talk to Pr Sandra at all throughout the whole camp..she doesn't know what I'm going through or perhaps what I will be facing in the coming semester.

I'm like Wow God! You truly know my struggles and what I'm going through. You are a good God. Father who has a perfect heart for me! I claim that verse! Help me Holy Spirit.