my precious friends

These are among my good friends whom I most treasure. I now realised how precious they are to me. I didn't realised how much I care for them until there was one day, I saw one of them crying in front of me. It broke my heart when I saw her crying but I couldn't do anything. All I did was prayed for her and asked God to remove the pain in her heart. I thank God that He sent me to MBS because if not, I wouldn't have met them. Although until now they do not understand the love of God, but they have impacted my life in their own ways. They taught me the way friends should accept one another, the way friends should encourage one another, help one another and be real to one another. Thank you Lord, for these precious lives. Thank you so much Lord.

my hostel room

BEFORE..



AFTER..

IF YOU HAPPY AND YOU KNOW IT, YOU CLAP YOUR HANDS!! :D

children

One of my children from VBS gave this to me :) simple note like this touches my heart :) what a joy! :D His name is Darren. He couldn't pass this to me personally because I didn't turn up for the English Camp (for kids) due to USM orientation :( and he kept asking Melvin (my assistant) "where is teacher carmen?" . sigh. It's really fun when you work with children because they are just so cute, innocent and harmless :) They may be angry at you for a moment, but the next moment they become your good friend.

:) darren and gabriel

i miss them :'(

happy ending in Christ Jesus

Went to balik pulau pasar malam yesterday. As I was walking with Kay Chin, I heard the salesman shouting "Satu ringgit, satu ringgit, satu barang satu ringgit!" So kaypo people like me walked towards the stall :D And then my eyes was fixed on this file (as shown above)! I like fairy tales since young because all of them have happy ending! :)

Same goes to all christians who believe in Jesus.
Those who run and finish the race will have a happy ending :)
Our ending will be eternity with Christ Jesus.

Revelation 21:3-4
I heard a loud shout from the throne, saying, “Look, God’s home is now among his people! He will live with them, and they will be his people. God himself will be with them. He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain.
All these things are gone forever.”

USM canggih, or saya tak canggih? :(

I went to Jabatan Bendahari today to settle my payment.

Carmen : Eh kakak, lepas saya tekan "print", slip keluar dari mana?
Staff : Dari bawah
Carmen : oh okay.. *after 10 seconds* kakak, tapi tak ada slip keluar pun?
Staff : Try guna computer yang satu lagi
Carmen : Oh okay.. *after 5 seconds* Kakak, saya rasa "mouse" ini macam dah rosak lah
Staff : Ini touch screen. *annoyed*
Carmen : oh okay... *embarassed*

MY GOODNESS, WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?? exactly like RUSA MASUK KAMPUNG. so embarassed! :(

Be grateful

Pastor Tom : So how are you adjusting to your uni life?
Carmen : *sigh*
Wai Wai : This girl was so excited when she got into Usm but now she complains every single thing about USM since the very first day. Aiyoh, Be thankful and grateful!

This conversation took place in the sanctuary right after Sunday service this morning.
Wai Wai reminded me that God placed me here in USM for a purpose, but He definitely did not place me here so that I can complain every single thing that is "complainable" about USM. I realised how ungrateful I was. God, please forgive me. Before this, I was praying like crazy for God's will to be done in my life, but now I'm complaining like a fool, forgetting that His will is perfect for me. Like what Pr.Daniel has shared, "A true disciple of Christ can even find joy in suffering." I'm not even to the extend of suffering yet, what more can I ask for?

Thank you Jesus
for all that you have done.
for all that you are doing.
for all that you will be doing.

I really don't know what to say about my new campus.
I'm still adjusting myself to the new environment, new people, new challenges.
Sometimes I'm happy, sometimes I'm sad. I'm still emotionally not stable YET.
I'm still seeking and searching, sometimes I feel lost.
But one thing I'm holding on to - that is the word of God.
I wake up every morning, knowing that I can claim His promises as written in the bible.
I begin my day knowing that He loves me and I belong to the King of Kings.
Yes Lord, my source of strength and source of hope is in Christ alone.

My God is not a liar.
He will do what He has promised.

DIE to myself

My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20

"prison" week

I'm back from USM orientation!! :D Was away for 1 week but it's as if I have been imprisoned in USM for one month! Gosh, the last thing you can do to a sang-chol is to put her into prison! :O

I was mentally abused, because I was not allowed to get out from the hostel for a FREAKING WEEK. Gahh! It was very challenging because I can't get my laptop connected to wifi, I don't really have close friends YET, I was tired and sleepy most of the time and yet, I'm not allowed to go out from the campus! :'(

Time was not flying for the past one week but crawling like a turtle. Seriously. I missed church for TWO FREAKING WEEKS. But I thank God, I was excused from another event this Sunday! I actually went to talk to the "tua liap lang" because I was really really pissed.

Just came back from Kem Pimpin Siswa which took place in Kuala Kangsar, Perak for 3 days and 2 nights. Now, I'm physically weak

:( muscles ache here and there, there and here.However, the camp was way better than what I expected, and I really thank God for that.

When I first reached there, I checked out the toilets and they are horrible - NO ROOF AT ALL, and with ciplak doors made from blue plastic sheets -.- lagi teruk than sabah mission trip. Then we had taklimat at night and ice-breaking. My face was masam for the whole day. I have no mood to make new friends at all..It was that sad. We were only allowed to go to sleep at around 10pm. And they woke us up at about 2am for jungle trekking. YES, 2 AM!! No typing error. Jungle trekking = leeches. For those of you who know me, you know that leeches are my greatest enemies. Not snakes, tigers, elephants, but leeches!! I was like "God ah, I can't take this anymore." I was really scared but I have no choice. So we entered the jungle.. At first I was scared, but after an hour or so, I couldn't care less. I was really tired. Bite me lah leech, whatever man.

My group was B4 and there were 9 of us - 6 girls and 3 guys. We helped one another and encouraged one another :) Things started to get better. The next day, we played games and exercised unity. It was fun! We then had survival cooking. Each group was given a chicken to slaughter. CRUELTY. I did not do the cooking, I helped to start the fire and did some washing by the river. Then we ate our food using hands, it was obviously geli but fun.HAHA. After that, we had "halangan" such as river crossing, commander crawl, terowong crossing, monkey bars, wall climbing (something like that), etc. Nice :)

I met some cool friends in this camp and I'm proud to say that
LEECHES ARE NOT THAT SCARY AFTER ALL!! RAWRRR!!!!




I AM FREE!

He knows my name - Tommy Walker

I have a Maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in his hands

I have a Father
He calls me His own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And He hears me when I call

His name is Jesus.

Do you really know Him?