From my heart to the heavens,

Jesus be the center,

It's all about You,

Yes, it's all about You.

Brother bear

I have this special 'communication' with my second brother. I think one of the reasons why I am so loud is because I always talk very loudly to him. haha and we always make fun of each other. I don't know why but I think since young, I always talk back whenever he says something to me.. because last time he always bully me one :p Sometimes, I even defend myself when he corrects me in a good way. Yesterday, I spent almost an hour waiting for him at Times Square because he wanted to send his car to the mechanic. I was quite upset. So when he entered my car, I replied him rudely when he talked to me. 


After that, maybe because of Holy Spirit's conviction haha, I felt that I needed to apologize to him. But of course, I tried to 'comfort' myself..that it's okay.. it's been like that since young.. 
I have been reading the book of Proverbs recently and I was just reminded on the verse that Dr. Living Lee shared during Family Camp,

Kind words are sweet like honey

sweet to the soul and healthy for the body. 

Proverbs 16:24

Sometimes, it is the people that are closest to us that we speak harshly to. We take them for granted because we know that no matter what we say they will never leave us. This is not good. 
Before I can do 'big' things for God, let me first be a person that knows how to appreciate and speak kind words to people whom I love and treasure.


So... I decided to sms him and apologized. 
"Hello bro, I think I'm rude to you today. I'm sorry :) I will miss you. Bye bye"


And guess what he replied???
"Are you sick?"


Haha, I find it quite funny actually. But I told him that "My God corrects me :)"
Actually, it's not so much about how he responded la..but as long as I do my part :) and I know  think he knew what I meant and he loves me even when he doesn't say it out.

i love you, Ernest :)

and Reon too :) :)
(just randomly add this pic..cuz so cutee i can't tahan haha)

Steph is back!

I would like to give a warm welcome to Stephanie James! 
Welcome back to the blogging world :)
It's our honor to have you with us hahahaha


Click here: Steph's blog


I was encouraged by her new blog, may you be encouraged as well :)

more than just a 'Bless campus'

I was on the way to dinner with my friend. As she drove pass the bak kut teh shop (near traffic light), i saw this aunty..the cleaner that we met the other day during Bless Campus. During 'Bless Campus', few of us helped her to sweep and mop DK foyer and  toilets around that area. And we were soooooo tired after that. We were wondering how a 68 year old lady could do this alone...every day. 
Seeing her washing plates at the bak kut teh shop, I was very surprised..why is she there? after working so hard in usm..now she is washing plates at the bak kut teh shop :( i feel so sad for her. 
I haven't been doing anything after 'Bless Campus' and i take this as a reminder from God to continue to be a blessing to those people around me - the cleaners, etc. 


Sometimes when I see things like that, I will tell myself.."It's ok...there are many people who work very hard for a living..how many can you help?"
But then I heard a still small voice in my heart telling me.. if I choose not to respond, not to do anything to what I saw..my heart will eventually be more hardened in the future. 
I hope to be able to drop by and buy her something to eat tomorrow. God's work doesn't end when it comes to the end of the semester. It ends only when Jesus comes back!

Heal my heart and make it clean

Open up my eyes to the things unseen

Show me how to love like You have loved me

Break my heart for what breaks Yours

Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity.

every move i make

Waves of mercy

Waves of grace

Every where I look

I see Your face
Your love has captured me

Oh my God, this love

How can it be! :D

If judging and condemning others can bring people back to God, God could have used this method 2000 years ago. But He did not. 

For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. John 3:17


If this is so, what rights do we have to judge and condemn others? or pronounce others to be 'unclean'?


Why then, many times we make people live under law rather than grace?

Dear God, please forgive me. 
Teach me how to love..
For love covers a multitude of sins.

Sweep ah SWEEP

Went to Tien's room yesterday to chit-chat. Talked about so many things and one thing that I really really miss was SWEEP :) It was really a great program that has changed the way I see things around me! :) 


I MISS:
All the Sweepers and FES staff!


Richard and Jai acting mute in the LRT! hahaha


Jared kena hit by the ball on his face during captain ball hahahaha


Fera who used to be my National Conference room mate, i miss talking to her one on one during Sweep :) I miss hugging her too! 


sweet potatoes that Karyn and Swee Kit prepared for those who suffered constipation :p 


playing Taboo with other sweepers! i likeeeee taboo!


Playing ayam and helang game :) :) my fav too!!


Walking over to petaling street as orang cacat to buy food to cook


Playing piano at the place that we stay for 2 weeks.. my piano teacher Pei Qin teaches me how to play the song 'At the Cross' :)


Wai Yan wrote me a 'love letter' heeeheee


being afraid of Ernest who looked so unfriendly haha


Joshua Johnson making fun of me because I couldn't differentiate KLCC and KLIA :p (now I can ok!)


Tien Hui piggy-backing me :D


Michael faning me and made me feel like a queen!


partnering with Zhong Xiang to prepare teaching materials for kids at Refugee School :) lipat boat!! *with Christ in the vessel, we can smile at the storm!*


laughing at Jared for appearing in the newspaper as chef HAHAH


Jai being the funniest and most corrupted referee during captain ball! hahaha


bullying Huey Lin when she was blinded! add rice on her plate without her noticing because she couldn't see! heeeheee


Asking Swee Kit the same question again and again and again......and again! :)


my twin, Carmen :) :) 


Alison who is one of the old folks in St.Mark. She would have forgotten me by now because she has Alzheimer.. it's okay :) I still have her picture with me.


The little kids in Shelter Home, so cuteeee! They fold their hands every time when they stand up to answer questions, is their culture i think :D

also the uncles at Crisis Home :) how they welcomed us so cheerfully when we went there :) so nice of them

sweepers doing the 'birthday song' sign language :) (taught by Sheryl!)


I MISS SWEEEP! :')

Day 1: sudah bermonopoly heeeheee :D

Berposing at LRT station after Sunday Service at SIB Brickfields :)

'Orang cacat' buying vege at Petaling Street :)

Richard imitating the guy at St.Mark, bad bad boy! :p

The Queen, fanned by her good and faithful servant :)

The most corrupted referee in RED! :p

Taboo!!! Btw, you see the stain on the floor? 
heeheee, itu kerja i :p
dropped my food on the floor because i was rejoicing after I managed to get the right answer hahaha

The Sweepers: Girls' power! :)

Last Day of SWEEP

 USMers!! Main Campus, Engineering Campus and Health Campus! :D

KLIA..KLCC!! :) 

Can't wait for sweepers to reunite! :)

Looking forward to Camp Cam. YAY!

Happy birthday to you *sings*

Happy birthday Reon! :) 
The most pampered princess in the family :) 
i love you sooo much!

such a time as this

I have this junior. She always make me laugh out loud. I don't know why but I think because of her simplicity and sincerity :) she's quite similar to me, in terms of family background (we are christians but our family members are not..), name (just different spelling), course, sanguine-ness (just that she is WAY louder) and we were both very shy during our first semester in PKA. I think she deceived most of us with her gentleness during first semester haha like how I used to deceived my seniors too :p


But of course she is also very different from me in many ways. Looking at how she has grown in PKA from the first semester, makes me smile :) and it's encouraging too. It's really amazing how God works in people's lives. 

Yes, they call us the noisy fellas!

 but even if carmen + fongwan, 

we are still very much defeated by her :p

As I look at all the juniors that God has brought into PKA, I'm really thankful and grateful to God for such potential people that will lead PKA in the future :)

It's almost the end of second year now.. Time flies super fast like superman. 
My friend was asking me just now if I will miss those graduating seniors.. yup of course I will, especially this person who have impacted my life indirectly. I didn't really get to know her until I serve in the exco team.. I would say it is a privilege, Monica, to know you as a senior and an awesome friend :)

Next semester, I will be missing Miss.Woon from Kluang as she will also be going off to Australia for her exchange programme. Pls remember to watch my series when you're in Aus :) so that you will miss me more :D heeehee

Yes, People go..but new people come too. I have to prepare myself to accept new PKA juniors who will be coming in next sidang..be ready to embrace new people, new friendships :)


I have 2 more years to my graduation because my course is 4 years but most of pka-ians from my batch will graduate next year. Fong Wan reminded me the other day, "I'm graduating next year in May." It hit me. Wow..that's like really fast. One more year left. Sure cry one lo..(i will miss you soooo much Fong Wan) haha but as for now, I want to learn to appreciate every moment that we have together as friends.. precious lives that God has brought into my life for such a time as this..to add values into each other's lives and to make a difference in USM :')


God knows when is the right time
to bring in the right people into our lives
to shape, encourage and build us.
Thank you.

Global Day of Prayer

Hey! Today is the first day of 'Global Day of Prayer'! :) I invite you to also join the whole world punya believers in prayer :)

“For the earth will be filled with the 
knowledge of the glory of the Lord
as the waters cover the sea.”

Habakkuk 2:14

You can download the prayer guide here: GDOP Prayer guide

My heart beats rapidly even as I visit the GDOP website! Imagine christians from all nations unite in prayer :D how cool is that? Let's join hands in prayer. 

His promises are Yes and Amen!

what to do :)

Actually me am very busy you know..I have 3 more assignments to finish :( but I no do..I like to procrastinate because I'm very lazyyyyy.. waaaaa :'(
Now that I feel sick *coughcough*, lagilah got excuse to procrastinate heeehee 


really lah, sick ma. rest lo :p nyek nyek nyek


then after that nee cry *cough cough*


waiting for my neighbour to pass me the actifast panadol..


so bored...that's why I'm writing all these. hahaha


going over to usm kkj tomorrow :) yay! so nice, get to see helicopter! 


okay, my neighbour came to rescue me and i got my panadol dee! but not actifast..it's paracetamol.. sad, actifast better lor i think but nvm la, what to do haha :) back to work!


bye!

God is for you,

not against you.

你要喝咖啡? :)

我今天考试, 考华语. 
我feel到, 我improve le
我很高兴
but 我不会再take level 2
因为真的是太boring :p

I am not God

For a moment, I thought I knew better than God. I made my own plans and told Him how things should go. Without realizing, I've set terms and conditions for Him. It's either this or that, I prayed. How silly. I was so focused at my circumstance because I'm tired.. I'm drained and seriously, I seriously felt that it was the BEST WAY out for everyone, no? yes? I don't know, I'm not quite sure. because I'm not God but I was trying to be God.


I was singing this song 'Till I see You' in church last Sunday and when I was singing these lines, tears rolled down my cheeks..

"And in my heart I pray that You'd let Your will be done"

"I will live to love you

I will live to bring you praise

I will live a child in awe of You"

"I will live a child in awe of You"  reminds me of my weaknesses and my inabilities before my Father, how much I need to rely on Him and ready to be amazed by the work of His hands.

I've been hearing "You are not God." in my heart. Yes indeed, I am not. And I don't want to take His place. 

Yes Father, Your will be done. 

Because You know what's best.