Risk It U-Turn - (R.I.U.T)

R.I.U.T, HERE I COME! Will be going down to Bayu Beach, Port Dickson tomorrow! 6 days, 5 nights! :) Pls don't ask me where is it because I don't know..I think Port Dickson is somewhere near Malacca, i think laaa :)
I seriously don't know what to expect from this National Conference, but I'm super excited! Pray for me if you can and... willing :D heee..Suspens suspens! :D

It's You.

I sat in front of my laptop just now. Played some worship songs on windows media player. I was resting my head on my study table with my eyes closed. I felt so far away from God recently. There were so many questions running through my mind. Have been asking God a lot of questions.

Suddenly, I just recalled the days when I was a new believer. I recalled how I came to know Him. How I begin to open the bible and read the word of God. How I find peace and comfort in His word. How I went to Pastor Tom and said "I want to accept Jesus into my life."

I remember my prayer was so innocent back then (im not saying that my prayer is not innocent now!) I didn't knew any BIG, LONG, BOMBASTIC prayers ( if you know what i mean..) My prayer was just simple and somehow during that time I JUST BELIEVE in the name of Jesus. And I experienced prayers being answered so frequently as though there's magic in His name. I wont say it's magic now, it's POWER. Whenever we pray "in Jesus' name", it's not a tradition how Christians should pray, it's not just the way we end our prayers..but it's the power in the name of Jesus!

But what happened to my faith now? Why do I have so little faith now? I look back at my spiritual diary. I can't help but to smile with tears, God was so faithful. He is still faithful. I actually jotted down the details, on how I experienced God's presence for the very first time. It was at EPCC, 26/7/08 during Revolution tour in Penang. I remember I met Sarah in the lift and I told her, "Sarah! I experienced God's presence!!"


God is good. He is so so good. Sometimes it's not even about what I feel God is.. but who He really is. If He had lead me through these 2 years, He will continue to lead me. Is anything too difficult for God?


"Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea, and all that night the LORD drove the sea back with a strong east wind and turned it into dry land. The waters were divided, and the Israelites went through the sea on dry ground, with a wall of water on their right and on their left." Exodus 14:21-22

Jesus it's You.
It's been You.

"If I only do what I feel like doing I'm not a believer, I'm a feeler."

- Bill Johnson

I want to be a believer.
I want to do what God wants me to do.

happy bday to me! :)

Appreciate the cacat bubbles.LOL :) thank you joanne

Piggy Jo and Poop Carmen :p but i can draw a nicer poop than joanne tan! :p

Joanne Tan Do do :D AHAHAH , thank you!! :D

koay yi lin's drawing on the crazy things that we do together :D

Luscinia says "Hi!" :D from princess koay!

Thank you kaychin and ee von! :)

Thanks gaik :)

Thanks Reagan! :) like the flower!

My coursemates came into my room at night and Ta daa! :) Thank you coursemates! :D

From left : wai yee, pei man, cai fung, kaychin and ee von :)

Me in my pyjamas and my blur face :/

Presenting.. LION-HEARTED DAVID CG!! :D

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This is what we always do during Cg, MAKAN & MAKAN after bible study!

Strawberry cake from PKA family during
Dechen's farewell :)

November babies :)

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THANK U SO MUCH EVERYONE! :) For everything, every SINGLE THING..bday wishes, calls, sms, facebook, twitter, EVERYTHING! IT'S YOUR HEART THAT COUNTS. THANK YOU! :D

a note to God

Dear God,

I know you are looking at me even as I'm typing this entry and even before I finish writing, you already know what I'm going to write :) Seriously pa, I can never understand how much you love me and how much you are thinking about me every minute, every second :) I love you, Jesus! My birthday is just tomorrow :) Thank you so much for creating me and forming me in my mother's womb. You were the one who saw me when I was born and every day of my life was recorded in Your book. Thank you so much pa, for giving me such a wonderful family, I love them very much and I know they are gifts from You :) Your daughter is now 20 years old :) Thank you for loving me, thank you for revealing Yourself to me. Pa, I pray for my friends who are still finding for the truth, they will be found by You and experience Your love. Some of them heard about You but they never really know You. Use me, father, all the days of my life because without you, I won't be where I am today. And because of You, I found the purpose of my life :)

With love,
Carmen

Break down my pride,
And all the walls
That I've built up inside,
My earthly crowns
And all my desires,
I lay at Your feet.

What is His calling for you?

Therefore I, a prisoner for serving the Lord, beg you to lead a life worthy of your calling, for you have been called by God. Ephesian 4:1

Are you fulfilling God's calling for you?

In this verse, I'm reminded that I'm called to be a christian before a student. At first, I was praying for God to remove all the things that make me busy in my uni life like exams, assignments, tests, meetings, etc. Then I felt it's not a good prayer, is it? Every day, we have so many things to do.

Father, I thank you that You have called me.
What a privilege to be called by You Lord.
I pray that in the midst of my busyness
and the distractions around me,
I will still choose to run to You every day without fail
and fulfill the calling that You have for me.
Help me, Holy Spirit.
In Jesus' name I pray, amen.

4 down, 2 more!

This is not longkang water or mud juice, this is COFFEE!

People say Coffee can make us stay awake.. I have no choice but to try :/

Ew...but still can take it....

Man...disgusting...eeek

Go Carmen, go! FIGHT!!

can't wait!

can't wait for exam to b over! seriously.gahhh.
can't wait for national conference end of this month :D
can't wait for "Open heaven" next month :D
can't wait for big-E camp next month!!!
can't wait for nexus internship next year!
Faster come faster come, i'm excited!! :D :D :D

He knows

He knows what is best for you.
He formed you in your mother's womb.
He knows you even before you were born.
He knows your name.
He knows your every thought.
He knows everything about you.

Do you know Him?

I am..in love

3 down, 3 more!!!! Woot woot!! Had my microeconomics, financial accounting and business communication paper this week. Wow, it's seriously by God's grace! Why? Firstly, I fall sick but thank God it didn't get worse, God heals! :) I'm not sure whether I will get A for all the papers, but one thing I know is I've tried my best! And you know what, every time before entering the hall, I just felt God's peace with me :) Even when I had my financial accounting paper, the "killer" paper, it didn't manage to kill me at all :) I know it's Him, it's Him.

Every day, I just receive His new love :) For this whole week, my prayer is that God will reveal to me how much He loves me so that I can love Him back. I love because He first loved me. and He never fail to fill my heart with His new love every day. Yes, I am in love! I am in love with Jesus :)

If you think that I'm crazy, just simply because you never know how much God loves you :)

Psalm 139: 13-18

For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.

Vanness Wu's testimony