Friday, November 30, 2012

She asked me, "Why God wants to do this to me?" and then tears rolled down her cheeks.. I was speechless.. because I don't have the answer. I came back to my room and asked God.. "Why?"

Isaiah 53:4-5
Yet it was our weaknesses he carried;
    it was our sorrows that weighed him down.
And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God,
    a punishment for his own sins!
But he was pierced for our rebellion,
    crushed for our sins.

He was beaten so we could be whole.
    He was whipped so we could be healed.
All of us, like sheep, have strayed away.
    We have left God’s paths to follow our own.
Yet the Lord laid on him
    the sins of us all.

Jesus was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. When bad things happen, we think that God wants to punish us for our wrongdoings.. we doubt God's love for us. But if He really desire to punish us, why would He punished His beloved Son 2000 years ago?

I don't know why.. but the truth is He did not spare even His own son but gave Him up for us all.



Monday, November 26, 2012

He has not forgotten

Went to church today as usual for second service.. because first service is too early for me HEHEE. Met Linda's dad, Uncle Low when I came down from my car...and somehow I was reminded about Linda's story about how the whole family came to know Christ (started with Florence as the only christian in the family).. this also reminded me about June's sharing on how God's grace work in her parents and the family, now even the grandparents accepted the Lord. 

As I walk towards the church gate, I was wondering in my heart, "When will this happen to my family?"..and ta daaa, God heard me! :) To my surprise, today Pr.Palan shared about the Parable of the Sower. What hit me most was 'Sower sows regardless of the condition of the soil..Sower's job is to sow..and keep on sowing.' So true..many times I get discouraged when I don't see fruits.. But that's not my duty..my duty is to keep on sowing and not give up. He also shared on the importance of having difficulties in life so that we will know what kind of soil we are and whether we have roots or not

To cut the long story short, Sis Hannah prayed for me after Pr.Palan finished preaching. It was the same verse that Pr.Christopher prayed over me last year when I struggled with this issue..(http://jesuslovescarmen.blogspot.com/2011/08/you-have-called-me.html)
'I knew you before I formed you in your mother's womb. Before you were born, I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.' Jeremiah 1:5
Wahh, it was like a reassurance leh :')
I know I'm not the only one who is the only christian in the family, haha maybe you're also one of 'us'.. I want to say that I feel you..haha ok sound so funny, but yeah, I feel you and I understand :) At times, you may feel like the things that you're doing macam no point one.. it seems as if God has not been hearing our prayers.. but God has not forgotten your family members! There is a reason why He placed us in wherever we are, He knows how much they mean to us.. and He loves our family members so much more! 

God keeps His promises. He can do exceedingly abundantly above all that we could ever imagine!

I pray that as we walk through the wilderness, our focus will not be on the wilderness but the Promised Land :)

Don't give up! (saying to myself too!)
:)

Saturday, November 24, 2012


I wanna sit at Your feet
Drink from the cup in Your hands,
Lay back against You and breathe, feel Your heart beat,
This love is so deep,
it's more than I can stand,
I melt in Your peace, it's overwhelming.

Monday, November 19, 2012

tambourine!

I am blessed! :) 
June gave me her tambourine last Friday because she will be leaving to Australia in January. She said she won't be dancing for quite some time.. so she decided to give it to me :D :D :D
You know, I really like tambourines :) and finally, I have one myself! I'm already making plans for my tambourine.. I will bring it to PKA prayer meetings :D and hopefully Bible Expo too!! YAY! Oh, and I need to get some ribbons for it too! 

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Pit..pit!!

I almost got killed todayyyyyy!!!
I almost got killed in an accident by a reckless driver!!! 
"Carmen, don't exaggerate la you."
Nooooo, i'm not exaggerating!!! 
I decided not to update my facebook status just in case some ppl might die of heart attack!

So this was what happened!! I went for lunch with June today (because she will be going to Australia soon  :( ) at Sg Dua Subway and then we were on our way to Queensbay..and like what is shown above, it was GREEN LIGHT...so she drove la, her small little kelisa.. And then here comes the reckless driver! I saw her speeding out from the junction near the famous Bak Kut Teh shop..
Then I shouted (but i forgot what I shouted haha) because June didn't notice as she was busy talking to me..haha then she quickly avoided the reckless driver by turning her steering and we crossed the other lane.. Really thank God that there was no car at that lane, at that time!!
It was so scary because seriously, the car almost langgar me okayyyyy, like so nearrrrr! very very very near, and the car was very very very fast! 
And it was a honda..can you imagine?! It must be God who protected us! :)



And the t-shirt that I was wearing today says,
 "Money is not every thing!"
So cun! heehee


Sunday, November 11, 2012

:D

YES!!!!!! :D After spending about 14 hours in front of my laptop, I've completed my political science assignment!! :D YAYYY!! What a joy! :D can you feel me?!!!! Ok, it's not like veryyyy good lar but I feel very happy because at least I tried to do it on my own! and it's my hardwork leh :D 

Actually, even right now I can predict what Dr.Benny will say to me when I see him, "You need to go deeper, Carmen. You're still on the surface. Think critically." Yes i know, i know! but Dr. Benny, you know or not, whenever I enter into political science classes I feel very stupid one (maybe I am but just realised after taking political science as minor..in a way, it really humbles me!) except for Introduction to Political Science! But I'm very happy Dr.Benny because at least I managed to come out with something HAHAHA :D Please be kind to me, give me at least a B- lah :) please loh :)



it's worth it! :D

Surrender to You, God! :)

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Rest in Him

No greater blessing than being with You.

Friday, November 9, 2012

Smartphones, not so 'smart' after all

Sad. Very sad.
Was having lunch with a friend at Genting Kopitiam and this boy was sitting right in front of me. I noticed him when he accidentally knocked our table while playing with the umbrella :) Then the boy sat down there eating quietly while his mum was playing with the smartphone. At first, I was really enjoying my laksa until I realised that his mum's attention wasn't on him but on the smartphone. Oh the 'wonders' of technology! It's just so sad and heartbreaking lah. Aunty, your boy needs your attention and love, not the smartphone. 

Maybe it's also a wake up call for us who are using smartphones as well. Ten years down the road, if you see me neglecting my kid(s) while playing with iphone22, I give you all the rights to dip my smartphone into my laksa soup..seriously.. 


Let us not lose sight of what's really important in life.


Sunday, November 4, 2012

Cuma nak luahkan

I didn't know that I'm so stressed.. until I realize that I start to eat like nobody's business.. and when I start to long and yearn for more Cartoons/Comedies! Symptoms la ni :(
I'm still thinking if I should go for Mamu burger later?! 

Noooooooooooo...!

Can't wait for Nov to end..seriously!


Friday, November 2, 2012

Yay!




Terima kasih si Shaun dan Terima kasih si Kah Mun!
membuatkan aku rasa diberkati dan disayangi dan juga gemuk


Yang benar,
Carmen yang gembira! :)