My God and I

I won't deny the fact that it's more difficult to live for God in the working world, even simple things like having the discipline to spend time with God each day. It's a struggle for me and I know I have backslidden from where I was. 

Yet His love always overwhelms me, His grace always draws me back.

I stand amazed in the presence
  Of Jesus the Nazarene,
And wonder how He could love me,
  A sinner condemned, unclean.

Human beings are so weak. We can be so close to God today and so far away from Him tomorrow. What draws me back again, is not my own discipline or effort.. but simply being in awe of My Father's love for me again.

I don't know why God speaks to me through hymns lately, but I love it :)

1. My Jesus, I love Thee, I know Thou art mine;
   For Thee all the pleasures of sin I resign;
   My gracious Redeemer, my Savior art Thou,
   If ever I loved Thee, Lord Jesus, ’tis now.

Take these mountain weight
Take these ocean tears
Hold me through the trial
Come like Hope again

My FIRST Infographics! :)

Yay! My First infographics! Thanks Tien and Shaun for helping me out and being there for me :) and for sitting there with me for hours!

It's not perfect but good enough for me and leaving rooms for improvement :D

I'm always blessed beyond measure!

Ed Sheeran - Thinking Out Loud

My new favorite! :) So beautifully written!

A new journey ahead!

Hello! This is going to be THE MOST SHOCKING & EXCITING NEWS OF THE YEAR : Carmen is now part of Piktochart Family! Wooohoo! *I can feel excitement bursting out from me even as I'm typing this!!* :D Can you believe it?? I can't even believe this. haha 

It was one random day that I had this 'just apply and see' kinda feeling and it turned up to be God's wonderful plan for me :) I had to pass 3 interviews including an interview with the CEO in order to get this job. Throughout the whole process, I've been telling people "If I get in, it must be God." And true enough, when God opens a door, nobody can shut :) Until today, I am still not quite sure why I am chosen but yays, I am chosen! It's definitely God's favor from the start to the very end! Honestly, I've never felt so sure of what I want ever since I graduated..until I went for my first interview in Piktochart. And tadaa! It feels so good to know that you finally found something that you're passionate about :D and the best thing is I saw God's hand at work in this whole journey :) It feels a bit scary for me to join one of the Best Start-Up companies in Malaysia cause it feels so BIG and HUGE.. but then again, I'm thinking if God's favor can carry me in then His favor will definitely carry me through. Praying that I will continue to trust Him till the very end :)


I'll surely miss this bunch of monkeys who journeyed with me for the past 4 months- The Newbie Team! and not forgetting my good boss too. Thank you for all the teasing, bullying, sharing crazy stories and laughing our heads off!

I'm just so thankful and grateful to God for everything. I still feel very undeserving of this each time when I share but God never fails to give me the best things in life :) Not because I earn it or deserve it, simply because He is good. 

 3 more weeks..and.. Goodbye OCBC Bank!:P

Cheng Beng

Thoughts of the day when I was on the way to church, being stuck in jam.

Me : Carmen, do you know where the burnt offerings go to? 

Myself : Well, most of the times, when I asked my friends, they would say it is for their late parents/relatives/ family in hell, so that they would have a better life with all the 'burnt' house/handphones/money etc.

Me : Why do they still choose hell when God has promised Heaven through Jesus Christ?

Myself : It could be traditions/beliefs that were being passed on from generations to generations.

Me : Do they not know about the truth; God loves them and want them to be in Heaven?

Myself : That's why you are here to tell them.
 

Uncle Guna

This post is specially dedicated to Uncle Guna who has gone Home to be with our Father. Uncle Guna was a cheerful man. He didn't own a big house or a big car.. he only owned a motorbike but he is a rich man.. rich in relationships and values. The world sees wealth differently than how God sees it. 

Uncle Guna lived with a heart of a servant - serving others and serving God. Most of the time when I saw him in church, he would be watering the plants. He would do those little things that most people wouldn't care or notice. I'll definitely miss seeing his smile and his heart of service. Even in watering those plants I could see that he was doing all that with joy..joy of the Lord.

Many turned up for his funeral because they respected him; the way he lived his life. Being in his funeral made me think.. I don't want people to come to my funeral and testify of my earthly wealth (though now I do not have any lol) "You know, carmen was a rich woman. She had 3 big bungalows and 4 Sports car excluding her Satria Neo!" If that's the only thing people testify during my funeral,  I would be crying in my coffin lol. There is so much to examine about my own life and sometimes I just couldn't tahan myself; my selfishness and pride. Yet not by my own transforming power but God's.

Uncle Guna, you will be an example, a model and an inspiration for many of us who are still running the race. Nobody wins a prize for starting well but finishing well. And you have finished well :) I'm glad that you are in a better place - Heaven, a place with no more sufferings, pain or tears and forever in the presence of our God, delighting in His love for you.
Till we meet again :)