A day at Kawan

Went to Kawan (a centre for the homeless) with Joanne two days ago. It was just a very random plan since Jessica is helping out in Kawan now. Yet it was so timely because we met a group of koreans who are here for a short mission trip. So nice to get to know people our age but from a different country :) Managed to talk to a few of them and it's really interesting to share with one another; our culture, thoughts, experiences and also our common interest - RUNNING MAN :p 

It has been quite some time since the last time I visited Kawan..but it was really nice to be there again. There was no proper schedule or timetable for worship, bible study or sharing.. but everything is just so random la. haha and it's very cute because the moment someone starts playing guitar or singing, some old people sing along even though it's just a 'worship practice'..People clap, people dance, people look at you :p And there was this uncle who sang really loud and out of tune :D but I could see so much passion in him from his facial expression :) I'm reminded again on heart of worship :) Thank you, uncle.

And because everything is just so random there, I was asked to do hokkien translation on the spot for Rowen who was sharing the word. Wah lau. haha but thank God everything went well i guess. Have to brush up my hokkien though..a lot of hokkien terms I didn't know eg; promise, heaven, forsake.. haha but it was a good experience. I realize that I do enjoy randomness too :D wee!

The ugly truth?

What's wrong with me? 

It seems like I can't really take it when people are good to me..haha crazy right. *smacks self*. I tend to feel very unworthy of them.. and this will then create fear in me that one day I might lose them because I'm not good enough. and it's very tiring one lor. 
Deep within me I actually struggle with insecurities but how come I never realize this part of me! :( That sense of unworthiness can be a bit overwhelming sometimes..but I thought I was never a melancholy?  but actually I'm glad because at least now I know! It is something that I need to work it out with God, seeking answers from God and..ya la, look to God.

And as I was just thinking about all these..I'm thankful to God! :) I feel so loved. haha because I know I'm so unworthy of His love yet I am fully accepted for who I am. I am loved by unconditional love. And I was reminded of Psalm 139 :)
O Lord, you have examined my heart
    and know everything about me. 
 You know when I sit down or stand up.
    You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
You see me when I travel
    and when I rest at home.
    You know everything I do.
You know what I am going to say
    even before I say it, Lord.
You go before me and follow me.
    You place your hand of blessing on my head
  Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too great for me to understand!
Psalm 139:1-6

Unending love, amazing grace :')

The 'One'

 I think this is a good read :)  my-husband-is-not-my-soul-mate
"There is no ONE PERSON for you. But once you marry someone, that person becomes your one person."
I have a friend who grew up thinking that marriage should be happily ever after..but then she realised that it is just another area that God uses to shape us and mold us.. to be more like Christ :)

When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart that
this is not, this is not our home