Today, I'm reminded on the most important element to UBAH. It is not hatred or bitterness. It is love - the love for our nation, our home, Malaysia. If truly I want to see change, let it begin with me. May I grow to love Malaysia each day :) #nomore-emo-emo #bangkit #rakyat #malaysia #love

Thank you, Wai yan, for helping me to see that in your blog post :)

GE13: My experience

I remember how excited I was to be a first-time voter. I was deeply encouraged to see the crowd lining up early in the morning. Even the lame came to cast their votes! I'm so proud of them. I'm so proud to be called Anak Bangsa Malaysia.

Nevertheless, I also remember witnessing how SPR showed special treatment to a certain party when we were on duty as Pemantau at a school in Balik Pulau. I remember how someone from SPR tried to accuse us of distributing flyers and I heard myself voicing out for justice, "The police there can be our witness!" There were also people who tried to intimidate us by taking our pictures without our consent. They came near to us and snap photos. I remember feeling very fearful. But the police were helpful and I saw them doing their job quite well.

I remember seeing a few motorcyclists roaming around to catch hantu. I prayed for hantu not to come so that there will be no fights..so that there will be peace. I also remember staring at the school and thinking to myself, "Why cheat in a school? The very place where you ask the younger people not to steal, cheat or lie..The very place where you educate the younger generation...Why?". I remember how Fong Wan and I hide under the umbrellas and keep hearing ourselves saying, "I can't take the HEAT anymore!" I remember smiling at this man whom I know are not doing the right things..I hope that one day he will turn away from all these things. I remember praying with Fong Wan as we sat down there by the roadside.

I remember how excited we felt when we were following the latest updates from different sources.. "YES! Unofficial results: XX seat, XX wins!" I remember how Malaysians felt when they flood FB with the latest updates..the excitements and sense of hope. However, I also remember the disappointments and anger that were lashed out after hearing the blackouts incidents. 

Up till now, I'm still very much angry and sad.. not because BN won but because of how they won. They have lost even the slightest (perhaps 0.01%) respect that I had for them. Changing my FB profile picture to black is not because I have given up hope on Malaysia.. but because I feel disgusted on how the people in power can twist and turn and to cheat Malaysians even when all of us are watching. I can't comprehend the degree of wickedness that the authority is practicing. I mean, please la, Who can? While most Malaysians went to sleep with disappointment in their hearts, I wonder if you, the culprit(s), could sleep well?

But thank you for doing all these because Rakyat will be more aware now. Ya, just in case if you're not aware..Rakyat sudah bangkit. You have reminded us on what it means to be a Malaysian - to care not just for ourselves, not just for Peninsular but also for Sabah and Sarawak. Thank you for challenging us to be even more united than before.

I want to remember how I felt yesterday and today. I want to remind myself of all these things so that I will not forget why I choose to stay back. Somebody said this, "Democrary is not a sprint. It is a marathon." Thank you dear leaders who have fought for the country all these while without us realizing how tired you can be, how disappointing things can turn out to be. Thank you to all who came back to vote. Thank you for believing not in the system but the power of unity.. Thank you, fellow Malaysians for believing together, for fighting together. Because of you, I have grown to love my home even more now. I have no other home. Malaysia is my home. Most importantly, thank you God for being who You are - sovereign, great, mighty and all-knowing!

Though the fig tree may not blossom,
Nor fruit be on the vines;
Though the labor of the olive may fail,
And the fields yield no food;
Though the flock may be cut off from the fold,
And there be no herd in the stalls—

Yet I will rejoice in the Lord,I will joy in the God of my salvation.

The Lord God is my strength;

He will make my feet like deer’s feet,
And He will make me walk on my high hills.

Habakkuk 3:17-19

Upon injustice, we will tell of our God,

The hope of all hearts is You!

Your love never fails.

Jom balik undi

The best article that I've read so far..saw it on FB :)
To my dearest BN supporting friends

I know that there are still some of you who refused to go back to vote. When we had casual conversation, you said you're lazy to go back to vote. As a penangite, I don't really know how to persuade you because I don't have to travel for hours to go back to my hometown.. but I'm very certain that if I were you, I will still go back to my hometown just to cast my vote. It is not like you do not know about the corruption or injustices that are happening in Malaysia, but perhaps it is because you don't see them affecting you much.

Maybe because you have forgotten about the poor, the marginalized, the needy.. most of us haven't really seen them. I've been to Sabah Mission trip and that's when I realised that many of them who are living in kampungs don't even have proper electricity - they use generators at night. The toilets are awful because they do not have proper piping. They don't really have clean water, they have cloudy water or air sungai. I have yet to see with my own eyes; the orang Asli, the penan people..I've only heard about them and how they are mistreated. 56 years of ruling by BN with many developments (KLIA, KLCC, Monorail, etc) happening around us, why are the people in rural areas still suffering? Living in cities or even small towns, we do not know what it is like to not be able to afford food.. because most of the times, we only busy asking, "What to eat ah?"

... or maybe, you just couldn't care less? "One vote only what..it doesn't make a difference!" "It is impossible to change, there is no hope." I want to remind us that truly, Change begins with us. There is no hope simply because you refuse to hope. To be honest, I feel very angry and disappointed whenever I hear of my friends not going to cast their votes especially when they are believers.. so much about 'praying and loving' Malaysia, the least you could do is to cast your vote. If you still refuse to go back to vote this Sunday, no doubt I will feel disappointed.. but I will still respect you as my friend..I will still love you for who you are.. but then I want you to ask yourselves if this is the value that you want to pass down to your children in the future? 

If you call yourself a 'Malaysian', then I urge you,
 Dear fellow Malaysians..

 jom balik undi.

Tanah Tumpahnya Darahku..

It was only 2 years ago that I started to learn to love my country..because I know my God's heart is also for this nation. Nevertheless, I still have so much more to learn..so do correct me if I'm wrong :)

Recently, I have been seeing a lot of posts and comments on FB that are related to GE 13.With all the big huu-haa about General Election and different parties, I can't help but to be disappointed to see how some christians (even leaders) responded. I saw a post where people are misusing God's word to 'side' the party that they are supporting. I think this is very wrong. The thing is this; it is very obvious that the post is a lie because the photoshop was really bad.. and I cannot tahan when I see christians sharing this photo and adding more inappropriate comments..cursing individuals. My room mate is right when she said, "People are being very irrational now."

Am I not angry at how some politicians use money and free gifts to procure votes?
Am I not angry at how some politicians use dirty strategies against one another?

Am I not angry at how fellow Malaysians beat others up just because of some flags?
Am I not seeking and praying for a better Malaysia?
Am I not for clean and fair election??

Despite all these, I think we have to constantly remind ourselves that we are attacking issues, not individuals. We hate sin, not sinners. What would Jesus do? I have to remind and ask myself too.

Yes, we pray for a better Malaysia.. but let us also pray for blind eyes to be opened..for those who do not know God to know Him. Let us also pray for ourselves, that God may grant us wisdom and discernment in our words and actions.

Yesterday, a junior asked me "What if things remain the same after 5/5?"
I thought for awhile and replied..

"God knows what He is doing."

Break my heart for what breaks Yours

Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause

As I walk from earth into eternity

Who Will Light the Way?

WHO WILL light the way

for tomorrow's dreams?

WHO WILL be a beacon

to those wandering in darkness?

WHO WILL catch a vision

and obey the godly call?

WHO WILL stand firm?

WHO WILL stay the course,

never wavering under pressure?

WHO WILL reflect heaven's rays

of promise to the hopeless traveler?

WHO WILL be a shelter

from the battering winds

and waves?

WHO WILL reach out

to the lonely

when no one else will?

WHO WILL SHINE FOR HIM?

If not us, then who?

(Written by Rebecca Barlow Jordan).

where is their hope?

Grand uncle passed away yesterday and it was a sudden news to my grandma who just recovered from breathing difficulty. I felt helpless as I saw her teared in the funeral just now. I think she is quite tough, really. It has been quite some time since the last time I went for a non-christian funeral. There is such a big difference between a christian funeral and a non-christian funeral. One with hope.. one without hope. It can be really scary to die without knowing where you will end up after that.

For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 6:23

There are a lot of rituals and chanting carried out in a non-christian funeral..yet I wonder..where is their hope?