performance mentality

During Nexus, I realised that I have this performance mentality. I always want to perform. Whenever after I prayed or shared something, I will run to Yee Vonne and asked "How was my prayer?" "How was my sharing?" I compared my prayer with other people's prayer. I compared my spiritual maturity with others. I actually care so much about how other people see me.


Then I learn that : It's not about the performance but a heart that says 'Yes Lord.'. The moment we begin to compare, we are saying that we are loved by performance. God chose me and called me even before I was born...even before I begin to perform. I am not loved by performance. I am loved by His unconditional love.
I am made to be loved by God, not to perform.

Jesus, may You be the only audience that I seek to please
whenever I speak.

:)

I can now play a few songs on guitar!! WOOHOOOOOO! Like I told you, I always give up very easily.. but this time, even before I start to learn how to strum.. I prayed. I prayed. I prayed and I prayed. :) :) :) God sent people to teach, God gave me perseverance! I love my Father! <3

Prophetic Evangelism II

YAY! :)

We went for prophetic evangelism AGAIN, last monday! I'm so glad and happy!! :) I was a little bit anxious this time because I had doubts in my mind....'what if this time I don't receive anything from God?' 'What if this, what if that', but I kept reminding myself not to put trust in human wisdom or human flesh but put my trust in Him and Him alone!

Josh prayed over us and gave us 3 minutes to ask the Holy spirit :)
I saw Gurney Drive, Sunrise and sushi king? hahahah..and then I saw a lady wearing a top with black and white stripes, and a long skirt. And somehow I just felt that she is not local. Other things include hamper and flower. LOL

So after we got all our clues, we prayed and went to gurney drive! We went to the place near coffee island and there we saw a huge tree with many lightings. There we saw FLOWERS lightings on the tree. Means kan, they use the lights to come out with corak bunga.... understand? sorry i don't know how to explain.HAHA.

There I saw my TREASURE! I saw a lady wearing a top with black n white-ish stripes and the top is quite long (which looks like a skirt!). She was standing next to a stall selling ice-cream and etc, right beside Creep cottage. Then we walked towards her and her friends (two tall men). Kelvin saw his clues there too -His clues include 'monkey eating ice-cream' and lime green t-shirt. There was this worker who wore Paul Frank (monkey) t-shirt serving ice-cream! and another worker wore lime green t-shirt! So crazy! Then aunty cheng cheng approached the lady and the other 2 men, we started to explain to them what we were doing.

When I asked the lady whether is she from malaysia, she said no! She is from vietnam and now working in Dubai !! :O
She said she has no prayer needs but I just prayed a prayer of blessing over her because I feel that she is the 'treasure' God wants to encounter. Anyway, to keep the story short kan, we also managed to pray for a guy from myanmar who needs healing for his sister and mother :)
All Glory to Jesus!!


Nexus internship will come to an end this sunday! Time flies, and finally!! yay! :D Sososo tiring, but I never regret for signing up for this internship! Thank you Lord because You made all things possible! :D

Nexus interns! (together with DTS students and team from IHOP!!)

father, give me fresh revelation everyday

Reading the bible without revelation, is just information.

I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. Ephesians 1:17-19

don't miss me

"why? you miss me ah?" has become one of the most 'outstanding' lines among the first years because we have very high self-esteem.HAHAH. And so, We were so bored that we decided to spam on people's FB wall.HAHAHAHAHA, and the victims include Mr. Abel Benjamin Lim, Mr. Michael Wong, Miss Melanie, Miss Monica, Mr. Derek and PKA FAMILY!!! Ahahahahhahahahahaha, so crazyyyyyy!! definitely not my idea! :p

We must not get bored because we are a bunch of CRAZY people!
RAWR!

me being naughty

Ok, I'm going to share this. I'm a naughty girl :p I always skip my lectures. Because no attendance will be taken, so yeah, I always ponteng.HAHA :p

Last thursday, I attended Operations Management lecture but I slept most of the time during lecture because I was soooo sleepy, really tak boleh tahan :( And the night before, I slept around 3am... My bad la.

Since my brain couldn't receiving anything, I went off during the break. And surprisingly, Mr.Soh (OM lecturer) decided to take attendance during the lecture. Obviously, during that time I sudah sleeping soundly in my hostel room. He then emailed to all his students who were absent (which include me) to produce MC next week.

Yes, I have no MC to give to him. I started to 'birth' all kinds of excuses that I can find. Some of them are - stomach ache, overslept, emergency.... But I ended up telling him the truth via email. I apologized and I also promised that I won't skip his class anymoreeee.

Because I know If I'm not truthful in small things, I will not be truthful in bigger things. Till now, Mr.Soh didn't reply me yet. Takut laaaaaa, maybe he will scold me :( 'naughty girl..' or maybe..just maybe, I will get lower marks for my assignment :( but I know that when I repent, God is gracious :) heehee.

Perhaps, some of you are like me? HAHA, maybe not? :p I just want to encourage you to always speak the truth. Admit your mistakes and be responsible for what you have done. I am naughty, yes I admit. but I do not want to cover by telling lies. That's not nice. God knows. God is not stupid. He sees everything. Even the number of hair on your head also He knows la adoii.

I'm not perfect..

I'm still learning :)
Let's learn together!

Bapa Yang Kekal

Kasih yang sempurna
Telah ku trima dari Mu
Bukan kerna kebaikan ku
Hanya oleh Kasih Karunia Mu
Kau pulihkan aku
Layakkan ku tuk dapat memanggil Mu Bapa

Kau bri yg ku pinta
Saat ku mencari ku mendapatkan
Ku ketuk pintu Mu dan Kau bukakan
Sbab Kau Bapa ku
Bapa yang kekal

Takkan Kau biarkan
Aku melangkah hanya sendirian
Kau selalu ada bagiku
Sbab Kau Bapaku
Bapa yang kekal